Hold onto the positive.
It has been a while since I have taken the time to write.
Not due to a lack of material.
I talk to people every single day.
I discuss ideas, debate topics and guide people the best I can, day in day out.
To be honest, I got overly focused on a very specific goal.
I put significant pressure on myself. Unfortunately, I became someone I am not…
After competing at the 2017 CrossFit Games, it became very clear that competing as an individual was not impossible. That with the right coach, support and determination, it was without question achievable. And it still is. I made significant changes in my life, changes that I needed to make in order to ensure my greatest success come the CrossFit Open in 2018. For the next six months I put my head down and got stuck in.
In 2018 the CrossFit Open kicked my arse.
And, to be honest it was probably one of the best things that ever happened to me too.
Not that I knew that, or that anyone could tell me.
I wasn’t listening.
When you get so focused on something. So determine, nothing can stop you. Quite literally someone standing in front of you with a shotgun will not deter you from your path.
Not a bad thing at all. Provided, you understand the sacrifices you are making. The impact you are having on those around you. At the end of the day you set your own priorities, and you are a direct result of your own decisions.
I am not disappointed, nor am I unhappy.
In the last two years I have learnt more about myself than I ever thought possible.
Not because I am older and more mature.
I learnt because I was, and am now willing to learn. I have a desire to grow as a person.
I remember quite specifically, turning up to the gym two weeks ago. It took me almost 15 minutes to actually go inside. I didn’t even train. I didn’t want to.
And I know why.
I understand why.
The moment you see something so important to you. Something you hold so close to your heart, as a negative. You immediately begin to destroy your relationship with it. When something becomes negative so do you. You have created the negative to start with, whether you like it or not. Most likely, you won’t even know it has happened.
I left the Army five years ago because I did exactly that, I hated it.
And I didn’t even realise.
But, I loved CrossFit.
I loved the idea of running my own business.
The moment I even thought of CrossFit, or what I do as a negative, enough was enough.
So, I took a break. I took a step back.
Funny enough, the very next day I turned up to visit a friend for a coffee.
The very first thing he said to me –
“It’s good to have you back bro”
I knew exactly what he meant.
Picture: 2013 Australian Regionals, featuring Richard Purvis, Joey Doolan, and Michael Gillum (where it all began)